Missing Her So Much! :,(

It's hard to write this blog without crying every second just thinking of her and missing her at the same time! :,(

-Janelle Lula Tongaonevai-

Losing her was something that has changed the lives of many people, she was always a loving and caring person for anyone she came in contact with.September 1, 2011 around 4:00 pm, Janelle and I were getting ready for the big Utah Utes game! :) Earlier that day Janelle had done her regular routine of getting up and going to work at 8:10, that meant waking me up 10 hours early just to get my stuff ready for the game which was in another 8 and a half hours! That the was the type of person Janelle was, always ready for anything that came her way! :) She did her usual wake up call for me, which was blow drying her hair in my room while I was still sleeping...oh let me tell you how much I love and miss those wake up calls. :,( Well she got me up and we both got ready and were off to work and school. I got the usual 4 or 5 calls Janelle would blow my phone up with just to see how I was or what I was doing, and I can't forget her crazy texts she would send just to get under my skin.Lol! Around noon Janelle got off of work and like every other game she went shopping for a game day outfit! haha! :) I was FINALLY off school and once again Janelle is blowing up my phone because she was waiting for a couple minutes while I walked from my class all the way in AFRICA! lol! We finally got home and started getting all dressed up and fixing our hair, I can remember her constantly asking, does this outfit make me look fat? without anytime to reply, she hurry and said, NO I LOOK GOOD! :) We then left to the game and If you knew Janelle, she would yell at other drivers for something she had done wrong. lol! That day was different from any other, it was like something wasn't right. We got to the game and Janelle bought us some snacks and then she seen her "football wives"! lol..they were all talking about their husbands and the game and whatever else football wives talk about. I remember running into the bathroom for like 4 seconds to HURRY UP and take our pic for someone came in! hahah...that's my sister for ya! Finally we sat down and watched the football game and all I could hear was the WHOLE conversation of Janelle and her friend Melvina. lol! Time to go home and EAT! haha...we met Ron outside and just talked to him for a little and once again Janelle was having a photoshoot with her football wives...lol! We all started walking to the car and saying our goodbyes to Ron's brother Cory and sister-in-law Janaan. :) Ron in his Red Rider ahead and us following behind in the gray car. As we started to get closer to West Valley I started to get emotional and cried to Janelle about my problems and she just comforted me and told me stories of her and Ron and I just felt at ease and then suddenly I blacked out. Little did I know that would be the last time I sat in the car with my sister, the last time i would get to talk with her, the last time I would see her beautiful face, the last time I would tell her I LOVE YOU NELLE! :,,,,( By the tender mercies of our lord and savior Jesus Christ, I did not feel an ounce of pain and neither did my beloved sister Janelle. I was not aware that we had got in a bad car accident, I can only remember waking up in the hospital and seeing my family surrounding me, each and everyone hugged me with tears in their eyes and quietly whispered, I LOVE YOU JAZ! :,( I wondered where my sister was, why she didn't come visit me or why she wasn't coming in to sit with me, but finally my family told me that my sister passed away.....

All I could feel was pain in my heart and the absence of my dearly beloved sister, I cried so much wishing she would walk from behind the curtains or call and say sorry im running late, but she didn't. ;,( Janelle had such a Beautiful spirit that the lord needed her more than we did. I can tell you that my testimony has be strengthened so much. I cry constantly about me and my sister's MANY memories together! :,) Everyone tells me all the time that she is always with me but in my own selfish thinking I literally want my sister here talking to me face to face or yelling at me about not listening. I truly miss my sister and even when I have those selfish times I know without a doubt in my heart that through this wonderful gospel, I WILL SEE JANELLE AGAIN as well as our other loved ones. My sister was truly, MY HERO! She saved me from the horrible things and people in life, took care of me like I was her daughter, taught me the importance of family. She never wanted me to fail so taught me through her own mistakes. She always prepared me for everything that came way, whether it was School, Sports, Friends, Family, and Church. The biggest thing my sister prepared me for was the day she was called home. I always depended on my sister for EVERYTHING, but now that she is gone I have try to become more like her. Through this life changing times, I am at ease to know that my sister is in Heaven with our lord and savior Jesus Christ smiling down on us. :)

I LOVE AND MISS YOU JANELLE LULA TONGAONEVAI! :,)